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very pleased with the first google image for ‘bulshitter’s delight’

I’ve never seen this poem before in my life, but I wrote it. The thing that is so fun about poetry is I temporarily lose my mind. The pen just moves and I have no idea what’s happening on the paper. So I don’t have a great memory for a lot of the poems. When compiling the book this morning I came across this one and it struck me as a ‘welcome to the world this morning!’ message. So – welcome to the world this morning! So many infinities of things are happening right now as you read this. Then go back to Facebook. So many things happening that could kill you or promote you or love you. More things that you’ll never know about.

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there is no need

to make it mean

or make it need

or make it neat

just make it real

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who battles the zeus-battler?

God came down and talked to me last night. Was I dreaming? Don’t think so. Not the god-as-the-universe god, I’m talking God-God, Zeus-God. Real fleshy booming lightning and thunder and creator of universes on purpose God. He came down to me and told me my purpose in life. He said, “Your life is your purpose in the Universe.”

He told me my purpose in life was to be afraid, to experience depression, to regret everything, to be neurotic. God made me a promise, “I have willed that you make at least three more catastrophic mistakes before I kill you.” What a guarantee! How stressful! Why would God make me suffer so much? Not even as a test – why would he create such a foolish meaning?

He told me my purpose in life was to feel Read the rest of this entry »

Some go to Church to hang out with God and get the God-awe. It’s a weekly filling of any God-shaped holes made from a week of ungodliness. It’s a recharge-reboot-reaim at heaven time. Sometimes I get a Universe-shaped hole that looks an awful lot like the ones of the godly variety. Here are some people who show us beautiful things: Read the rest of this entry »

life is the universal default

I was laying on the floor in my mother’s apartment with bloodshot eyes when the answer to life hit me: just kill myself! It made perfect sense logically – life is terrible, so just stop doing it. (Oh the raging hormones of a depressed twenty-something!) I laid there with the inescapable Answer but it didn’t feel quite right. I knew something was askew. I was depressed and everything was terrible and the last nice thing I thought to myself was, “Good job, you took a shower today!” That had been three days prior.

There is but one truly serious philosophical problem, and that is suicide. – Albert Camus

It seems like the answer to that question is in every breath taken, meal eaten.

Sometimes life fails us and we need to end it. End the experience.

Here’s the secret: You don’t kill your whole self. Read the rest of this entry »

Or you could just brush your teeth

Meditation is rarely as big as a 10 day commitment and doesn’t mean you must be in the lotus position. The point of meditation is to be aware of your thoughts. You’ve already done at least ten meditations today.

I used to tell people who want to get into meditation to sit down for one minute and then add a minute every day until you get to an hour. But even that’s too much sometimes. We need a lower barrier to Zentry! (Zen-entry! hahaha oh Kyle you clever boy.) So let’s start with what we already do. Read the rest of this entry »

A dear-dear friend of mine and owner of RepAssured told me about a study done by a big-time-go-gett’em university on goals. They asked a group of students if they wrote down their goals. Then asked if they reviewed them each day. 1% of the students wrote down and reviewed their goals regularly. They found these kids all grown up and found that the 1% had something like 95% of the wealth of all the students questioned. We found the 1%!

That’s good, goals work. But sometimes, Frodo gets killed before he gets to Mordor. But what if I wrote my goal, reviewed it, visualized the heck out of it – then died? Which is a real possibility. Then I wouldn’t have finished building my castle and I would become soil – dust in the wind! Read the rest of this entry »

There is a popular notion that we are given life. So we’re born with a debt. This goes beyond the Catholic idea of original sin. We aren’t given life. We are life. There is no ultimate obligation. You will go around lifeing until the day you die. And you can’t be separate from that life.

“This is your life, you only get it once, use it up!” But I’m not separate for my life, so I can’t have it in the way that I can have a girlfriend or a car. You are not some ego that has attached itself to a life. Your ego is a piece of life. Your thoughts and actions and feelings are all pieces of the life that is you.

When we understand this, we can stop dividing our beings. We can stop pitting our Self against our Self and creating false divisions. We can achieve the fluidity that is life naturally. The fluidity that can’t be stopped or grasped. Understanding that we are life means understanding that we are just as much death. We, Life, spawned from Death and will return when we’re done lifeing.

When we understand that we are life then we know that death is nothing.

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